True to you, True to me

Few months ago, I thought we're over, we were not holding each other back.

Everyone thought our story had finally come to an end.
But no one knows what will happen tomorrow, anything could be possible,
and we are back together now, next month will be our 3rd year anniversary.

Honey, I'm sorry for yelling at you all the time.
Everytime you don't reply my message or pick my call, I feel so insecure.
All I want from you, is your love, your caring, your accompany and your heart.

I'm glad that you started to work things out with me,
we talked and we solved things out, it's working honey, can you feel it ?

I'm very very sorry honey, very sorry.
If only I know how to appreciate you from the beginning,
things wouldn't happen that way, those shits will never happen.

I'm just in the bad mood, and I nearly forgot,

You are the best choice I had never made.

I'll remind myself, you are the best thing in my life,
I must treat you right, make you happy all the time and be there for you when you're upset.

People say, money can't buy love, money can't buy happiness.
But I will buy all the little happiness just for you, it's always worth it.

Do you know why I want to pay the bills for you ?
So that I will not keep using the phone like I don't have to pay it.

Do you know why I want to work ?
So that I can know how hard to it to earn money and work is very tired.

Do you know why I play dota ?
So that I can understand the excitement of dota and so I can play it with you.

Do you know why I often bake cupcakes/muffins/cake/cookies for you ?
So that I can understand it's not easy to set up a suprise and I have to put a lot of effort in it.

Do you know why I smoke ?
So that every smoke I breath in, I breath in you, you are not only in my mind, you are all over my body.

Honey, it's already 1046 Days we had been together and I love you very much and I always do.

My way

Cute Mr B made me this.



Love it so much <3 Thanks Mr B.
Do visit his site for more music http://www.youtube.com/user/djbeleck


It's the best surprise I got for this year so far, Nick isn't giving me any surprise after the camera. =(

Anyway, someone called me again last night and I didn't pick up.

You don't take things seriously but I do.
When I say E-N-D, it means END.
I gave you chances but you don't appreciate it so no more chances for you,
and I'm so sick and tired with all your mumbling and nagging.

Go on and continue act like you are smart, no one gonna care you anymore.
Ever since you left Room 1, we are sooooooooooo peaceful, no argue no thing, just have fun playing dota.
No more scolding each other, you noob he noob, blah blah blah bullshits !

Do you think everyone is so free like you do ? Don't have to work or study ?
Day night sitting in front of the pc ? And dota is not an easy game ok ?
If you said so, let's play SDO or O2jam, I swear you can't even win half of the game !

However, how bad is bear bear ? How flirty he is ? I don't see that till now.
You always tell me how flirty how stupid how bad he is, yaya whatever,
at least he won't dump me alone here and go for other games.

Always scold me for talking to boys, give them my msn and my number.
What about you ? You even have phone sex, like W-O-W !!!
I played webcam with bear bear but not cam sex, just 2 friends chatting !

Don't want to say much, your lies you know better than yourself,
if you think you are a genius can cover up your lies ?
I'm telling you now, you are a FAILURE LIAR, I know everything just that I choose to keep my mouth shut.

Whatever, stop calling me or spread my number out.
Tell everyone I'm a bitch or something, go ahead, I don't mind.
Gonna leave Msia sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon, woohoo !!!

Well not that soon, in 2 years time, pray for me, bless me too.
Anyone care to sponsor some money to me, I'll pay you back with kisses, PMSL !!!

Bad afternoon till now

Not very but at least I got better than this afternoon.

Was crying badly thou, hope I didn't freak out the customers,
and thank you for buying a laptop from me.

Words couldn't express how I sad I am today.

Chatted with Mr B, it's really nice talking with you,
thank you for cheering me up, you do make me laugh for some times.
And I'm glad that you can finally let go of her,
you are a great guy and you don't deserve to be treated like this,
same goes to me but I'll still hold on for a bit.

I will try my best to work things out.
God gave us a second chance, I believe god did that with some reasons.

But if it doesn't work or you don't even want to work things out with me, so be it.

As Mr B said, I don't deserve a douche like you and I'm not gonna waste my time with you anymore.

Good night everyone and for the next post, it will be a post that piss every malay off.
So please don't read if you could stand it, it's not racist, I just had enough of it,
it's time for me to speak !!!

Chaotic

Long time no blog ! Feel like updating my blog for a bit.

My friends were so worry about me that the EMO me is back. * shy *
Don't worry, I'm very fine, so fine, I know what the hell I'm doing.

Then my bestie Winnie msg me, MOS tonight ?
She's been asking me to club for so many times and I never show up, not even once,
so this time, I promised and I'll go.

It's been ages I have not step into the club, so rusty ~
The music isn't that nice, couldn't really find my clubbing mood.
And it was Uniform part that night, people were like freaking wearing the SCHOOL UNIFORM !!
Oh shit, can you imagine dancing with a scout or a teen, errr, so not interested.

I brought myself a mineral there, not a drip of alcohol for me anymore,
but I did try the Vodka at MOS, seriously, NO TASTE AT ALL,
freaking MOS so kiam siap ! Giving us water + vodka, no it should be 70% water + 30% vodka or maybe less.

Went home around 2am and found out my leg was scratched by something,
no idea at all what happen, not feeling any pain but it's still bleeding.

Anyway, met a guy from Poker, from Aussie.
Sweet guy and charming of course, hope he and his girl could get back together,
don't wanna see a great guy with a broken heart.

We played poker last night and he was damn ONG ( lucky ) lor !
He got Ace like every round but I am still one unlucky girl, damn.
I had KK, I lost. I had AA, I lost. Keep losing, so damn suay ~
In the end, I just sat there and watched him play hahaha.

OMG, I'm so addicted to poker, I'm a poker freak !!

More Lies

http://manlov3man.blogspot.com/2010/01/sorry.html

First Quote

i'm really sadly when you writing that things for me..
you lost trust form me because i'm told you some lies..
why we wanna lie you?
what kind people you're? you're a people easy get angry..
we're very afraid of the time when you angry
i really don't know what you thinking now..
i scare you.. i'm afraid you.. you're become more and more horrible!

At first, you two get near and closer because Nick told me,
you two are discussing my stuff and he's very boring when I was not around. ( I went NS )
You would had told me that, if you really treat me as your cousins.

If one day, your boyfriend came to me and tell me all your stuff,
I WILL tell you everything we had talk about,
maybe you think that is unnecessary but do you know that a small matter could turn into a HUGE matter,
you don't know and that's why your exs dumped you !
I don't mean to be so mean but that is the truth and you have got to face it,
not giving yourself excuses and lies to skip that away.

When things happened, the first thing to do is SOLVE IT NOT COVER IT.
Why would I be mad or angry because Nick discuss my stuff with you ??
It's just like when you accidentally bang someone on the road,
you should call the police and send him/her to the hospital,
not running away from it because you are scare ! Face it AGAIN !!

Didn't I give you chance to tell me the truth,
I already knew they had an affair, and WHAT THE FUCK you told me ?

NO SHIT, MY BEST FRIEND DON'T LIKE HIM AND THERE IS NOTHING TO DO WITH BOTH OF THEM !

It is either you are a plant, living with no feelings at all in these 22 years,
if not you can surely smell something fishy between both of them !
So stop lying and FACE IT AGAIN AND AGAIN !!!

I am a person who hate being cheated and lied.
For example, I hate peanut butter but then you still giving me a peanut butter sandwich,
then telling me it was chocolate, angry not ? Dude ...

Second Quote

and now.. so sorry i'm too close with your boyfriend..
i would like to apologize to you..
and make you sad and worry..
and maybe we do something you really don't like too..
but we're just a friend only.. is real!
so sorry.. but..
because for your boyfriend so you writing those things for me..
writing those things to you cousin sister me..
my heart was very hurt very painful..
for your boyfriend, you can do anythings or give him anythings..
you always forgive him.. and protect him..

You actually feel hurtful and painful ?
How do I feel when you guys lied to me and I lost the one I loved so badly,
somemore end up sleeping with your best friend.
Don't I feel hurtful and painful as well ? Or you think that I am some robotic cousin sister ? No feeling at all ?

When I chatted with your exbf Grey about cooking pancakes and stuff,
and you was kinda out of our topics,
do you remember how did you react ?

Wow, both of you have so much in common. ( With sour face )

So you guys are just friends.
Okay, I'll ask Winnie here.
Winnie, do your cousin sister invited your bf to go to her house,
and drank wine/liquours with her and her best friend together ?
Then got drunk and overnight at your cousin sister's place ?
Anyone's cousin sister do that to your bf ? Is it right to do so ?
Please do leave me a comment. TY
( If you personally think that it's nothing, do tell me when you have a bf,
I would love to invite him to my house and drink with me, I have few bottles of Chivas here.)

Quote Three

what can i say?
you love your boyfriend more than me i know..
i'm not anyone for you..
but i'm your cousin sister!
don't because a boyfriend to spoiling our relations!
please.. don't!

You knew I love him then why are you doing this to me ? Huh ?
Ya, I'm your fucking cousin sister and you just screw up our relationship,
because of your so-called SLUTTY Best Friend.
I didn't ruin it, you did.
Stop giving yourself another lies and FACE THE TRUTH !!

Quote Four

so sorry about that!
you're my cousin..
we are relatives!
i can't lost you in my life..
never and never!

Chinese New Year is coming soon..
i hope we can be happy when we celebrate CNY.. k?
no more fighting on our blog.. k?

i hate fighting..

sorry..

i'm so sorry..
forgive me..

Do you have any idea how much I love him ?
How much effort I put in this relationship ?
I even sacrified my very important exam SPM because of him.
If it wasn't him, I would be going college easily and dating college boys !

And that incident happened when my BDAY was around the corner,
you want a Happy CNY then my 18 years old BDAY who's gonna make me happy ?
I lost EVERYTHING in that night, just one night, just few hours, MONEY and LOVE all gone.

Your Best Friend come from an unhappy family, doesn't mean she can just anyhow screw up other's life.
Hey, I had a bad childhood, I got molested by a freaking uncle when I was 10, does that means I can go screw up people life ?

Like I said, if you want all these to stop, just pretend that you didn't even read it,
because YOUR LIES ISN'T GONNA HELP YOU NO MORE,

I AIN'T 3 YEARS OLD, SO FOR GOD SAKES, STOP LYING AND GET OVER IT !

Think again, are you really feeling sorry for it or just to post up another lies to cover up your previous lies ?

and guess what,

Your lies will never gonna cover the truth anymore.

xoxo from ya sweet and innocent cousin sister.<3